Saturday, March 21, 2009

P-retty H-ard D-ecision

I can admit it. I've got problems. One of which is that I have a serious case of indecisiveness. Or maybe I don't. Or maybe I do. When faced with a big decision I tend to perseverate and freak out and call everyone to take an opinion poll, and make lists of pros and cons, and then pace around and fret. You're thinking, "do people really fret anymore?" Yes. I do. I'm pretty spectacular at it, if I do say so myself. So if I've been quiet around here, it's because all my meager mental energies leftover from entertaining Little One have been expended in this manner.
My big decision has to do with whether or not to go back to school, and whether to go full time if I do go. As many of you know, I'm slated to finally begin working on my doctorate this coming fall. Which would be hard work, stressful, expensive, and a logistical mess. Especially considering the fact that Little One and I are really enjoying my current job title. But, it is a great opportunity, it's something I love, and I want to be able to tell Little One one day to educate Herself and to chase Her dreams without being a hypocrite. I've been having trouble sorting out whether I'd most regret not having at least tried to finish school, or most regret the time I'd miss with Little One. J, darn him, is just no help at all since he has to go and be all supportive all the time. Sheesh.
Well all the fretting has helped me come to what I think is a pretty good compromise, for now. Or maybe not. Or maybe so. Well, good enough to free up a few brain cells for other activities for now, and so pictures and updates of my current, teensy boss will be forthcoming. If you'd like to add to the running opinion poll, feel free to visit the Peanut Gallery down there. And if not, at least you'll know next time I don't post for a while that I'm not ignoring you, just probably having to choose between two flavors of ice cream or something.

Now THIS:
is a sweet, sweet baby. That I'm sure of.

2 comments:

  1. I can never replace the years when I wasn't there to raise my son (J - your husband). My heart still aches, yearning for memories that are not there. Stay home with Little One - you will not regret it. Grandma L

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  2. Whatever you decide will be the best for both of you. You can always do the PhD later. She will never be this young again. We love you and think you are an amazing person with or without that degree.

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